
Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 10:16 PM
A new starting
A new starting.
I was really glad to attend the motivational camp man. Though i was quite reluctant at first, walking extremely heavy steps to school. :/ That $165 dollars was worth it i guess :D What struck me most was the emotional segment of the camp. Whereby the trainers started making us feel the guilt of neglecting our parents or showing attitudes to them etc, making us realize how important they are & that we've gotta really treasure them from the bottom of our hearts. Amazing, isn't it? Mum & Dad, though i know you won't read my this, but i wanna you to know that i really LOVE you man. I really apologize for all the wrong doings i've done & sometimes i would repeat them again despite saying sorry. Hurh, nonsensical, isn't it? But i'll try to control myself & try not to repeat them ever again. I've been taking advantage of you guys too :/ Such as sending/fetching me to/from school, cooking dinner almost every night, paying really expensive tuition fees for my sis & i, & even willing to pay more just to help us improve on our grades despite the fact that it's a bit tight now, & much more. Oh yeah, also, nagging at me to take my asthma or other medication constantly. There were times when i got so fed up of taking medication everyday that i thought i should just drop dead. But i know i'm wrong, i really appreciate that. Every single thing you guys did for us shows that you loves us, even the littlest things.
The day you scold us the most, it is one of the days that you care for us the most.
Back to the camp-- i enjoyed the speed reading activity thing! haha searching the numbers & words from rows in 40secs, gradually decreasing to 20secs. It was so darn fun man. haha. Another speed reading activity is reading of comprehension passages was rather...annoying. Cos even if i could read fast, i would not freaking remember what i read so, yeah. i rather go my pace man. But i like the music that they played. i think that song was from death note. It's a background song, meaning instrumental. ahahaha. The last day, during the closing ceremony was woaahhhhh. Another emotional time again. Students went up on stage to express their feelings for their parents & also apologizing for what they did. It was melancholic yet touching. I teared a little, but stopped for a while. All of the sudden, Ying started crying badly. i got shock please. Like really bad, so much that her whole face turned tomato. ): you know why? She misses her mum a lot :/ her parents are in Taiwan for approximately 2years. They can't come back for quite a while D: i really pity her man. Cheer up ok?? I LOVE YOU, SQUAK. My heart shattered into million of pieces each time she says "i miss my mum" in an unstable voice while crying. Plus, she seriously can't remember how her parents looked like already.Their vivid picture of their faces in her mind keeps fading as each day passed. )): & then at almost at the end of the ceremony, i started crying too. It was a really sudden feeling to cry, so i was in a state of shock & in a really depressed state. :/ i think because when i saw many students hugging their parents warmly while we look really lost, i realized i really wanted my parents to be there too. It's my fault anyway, i forgot to tell them that they could come for the ceremony. sigh.
THANKS Pamela, Amethyst, YingYing, Natali, Jing Ru, Faith, Celia, Suleshna, Siti, & all those others who hugged me when i was producing a fountain :D i'm pretty sure there were others there but i was busily burying my face in Pam's shoulder so i didn't get to see everyone there.
Today, i'm still having after shock. I cried again today as i finally pour out those words like "sorry" to my mum. If only my dad was there too, but he had to go out. sigh.
Anyway, went to look for school shoes at plaza singapura & opposite St Andrew's Cathedral, but to no avail. Whatever i wanted was all meant for guys & they didn't have my size. SIGH. LIKE REALLY. HMPH. :////
Ps. That photo above was taken at my grandparent's house in Japan. & guess what, it's only at the 3rd level. A totally unblocked view! In Singapore, living at the 3rd level = view of neighbours' houses. No offence, but it's true :/
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